general blather, poses

Breathing

This morning on my walk, I was whining to my walking partner (14 years!) about having done nothing at all yesterday except lie around and feel bad.  Then I mentioned that I had done yoga, but it was all restorative.  She laughed.  “Get that ‘but’ out of there!” she said.  “You DID do something yesterday.  You did yoga, and it was all restorative.”  Wow.  Changing ‘but’ to ‘and’ made a huge difference.

On Saturday and Sunday, Mary Obendorfer was at our yoga studio for a workshop.  This is the first time I haven’t been able to attend the whole weekend’s worth of classes.  Mary is just great – warm, funny, sarcastic, a wonderful teacher with an enormous storehouse of knowledge.

I went to Pranayama classes both mornings.  Needless to say, I gave her a heads up about my health before class.  She was very alert to what I could and couldn’t do, and gave me different instructions at various points in the class.   In some ways, this illness is the universe’s way of getting my attention and getting me to start a pranayama practice for real.  Kind of a brute force method, but OK, I’m listening.

Mary also told me to do restorative inversions (rope Sirsasana, chair Sarvangasana, Dwi Pada Viparita Dandasana, Setu Bandha Sarvangasana, etc.) with very long holds of 10 or 15 minutes.  She said it would make a big difference to my nervous system.  Sounds good to me.  AND it’s all restorative.  No buts about it.

Restorative means I’ll be restored.  I like that.

mulling things over, self-talk

Something to work with

I’ve been trying not to write about how bad my joints have felt, because I didn’t know why, and also because I hate it when people whine about their illness all the time. As it turns out, I have Lyme disease. I’m hoping it’s in the early stage (a piece of information I don’t have yet). So I’m going to be taking tender care of my joints for a while. I’m quite pleased to know that I don’t have lupus or rheumatoid arthritis or anything else equally life-altering.

I thought after November’s foot surgery I’d certainly be back to a more active practice by January or February, but I didn’t feel like it. So now it’s going to be restorative for a while longer.

Regular downward facing dog does not feel good on my wrists, elbows, or shoulders, but I’m doing fine with rope dog and Dolphin (what IS the Sanskrit for that one?).  Twists are fine, but not the seated on the floor kind.  Inversions seem to be OK too, although tricky to get into.  I look forward to the day when I can work on Adho Mukha Vrksasana (handstand) and Vasisthasana (side plank) again.

I’m happy to know what I’m dealing with and how I can go forward.  I know I’ll be impatient about it, but not as much as not knowing.